Lonely boy.

Everything is just too much sometimes, you know? I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes a whole bunch of days just jump me at once. I guess in the scheme of things, I don’t really have that much to complain about. In fact, my life is really really really great. I finally have friends that I truly love and want to be around, I’m about to graduate college and that means I have a whole life in front of me to do ANYTHING I want with, I’m healthy and funny and pretty. I could never ask the universe for anything else. But sometimes life just pushes you over. It makes you doubt yourself, it gives you too much responsibility, it even takes people away that you really wanted to keep. But even with all of these things that are trying to shove me to the ground and keep me there, I give the best version of myself that I can. Some days are good, some days not so good. But I’m doing the best I can. And let me tell you, my best is pretty damn good.

So here’s the thing…since I have most all the good in life on my side, I’ve decided to try to take other people’s bad. Not take it actually, share it. A lot of people I know are dealing with a lot of bad right now, and I love those people…I don’t want them to have bad inside. Not like I’m some great person that can take away all of their pain and replace it with light and joy, but sometimes you just wish you had someone to sit in the ashes with you. And everyday I wake up and think about those people, I just want them to know that I’m there too. I’m right there in shadows, and even though I can’t bring them the light, at least they don’t have to be in the shadows all alone. Because being alone together is better than being alone all alone.